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My life is a complete mess!
Monday, October 29, 2007

Life is sooo boring.. work work and work everyday.. First.. my piano problem is still not solved.. so fustrating.. stupid guy says his supplier is very busy and he said he cant always wait for his customers to be home to service the piano.. like HELLO?! so the CUSTOMER has to WAIT for you to be free?? WHEN YOU SOLD ME A DAMAGED PIANO?? What kind of service is this?! anyway.. i have already decided.. Whether or not that jerk can solve the problem.. i am going to sell it back to him.. even if its at a lower price cos i dun wanna keep this stupid time bomb at home.. I rather lose 2000 than 5000 in future.. and if he doesnt want it.. then i jus pay the damn 500 to change a piano and then sell it to someone else.. He irritates me so much.. arghh..

And then I dunno what the hell got into me these days.. First.. my dear boyfriend is soo busy with work that we seldom meet.. and that's not the only prob.. he doesnt even have time to call me anymore.. so basically.. I only see him for a few pathetic hours once a week.. and hears from him
only like for a few minutes a week.. *not a day*.. Ok.. then I feel like I have lots of prob now.. first my piano, then my music.. THEN.. I injured my arms.. ya.. both of them.. I have been feeling this sharp pain at my joints for abt 2 months le.. then yst.. I felt the sharp pain on my right arm joint again.. couldnt lift my arm.. and then dear hua asked me to try comparing my arms and see if they are abt the same length.. GOSH.. i tried it.. and my right arm is about 1inch plus longer than my left.. like WAT?! so I finally went to see the chinese sinseh.. and she said my arms are not dislocated.. but its strained.. I practised too much on the piano.. and i should rest.. she also did acupunture for me.. like OUCH.. My colleagues say i prac too hard.. especially since I have been practising this very dramatic and LOUD piece these days.. so cos.. I dun actually have lots of strength and not really used to using arm weight to play.. I should practise too hard.. I should have rested when i felt tired.. haiz.. great.. So.. now my playing is still like that.. and I cant prac too hard.. arghh..

So anyway.. then I started reading "signs" like.. from magazines, tv, hearing from pple.. and they are all about.. how communication is so important between couples.. like.. one article talked about why some successful women are still single and only found boyfriends when they are 40.. basical
ly.. after so many experiences, at 40, they know what they wan.. and usually they get what they want.. that is.. man who can be friends, SOULMATE.. a man who they can depend on.. they were saying that.. when you have boyfriend at a young age.. you are so blinded by love.. you forgot what you want.. haiz.. then.. another article talked abt what kind of relationships will last.. and it is those where the couples can COMMUNICATE.. share their joy and sadness.. once again this soulmate word came up.. then.. I read my email.. and my sis sent me an email which is a personality test.. I tried it.. and the result is i'm supposed to be "the negotiator"..

So.. the negotiator.. is someone who is "associated to emotion, intuition and creativity.. he is selfless, imaginative, sympathetic, socially skilled, flexible, verbal and idealistic. In love, you want nothing less than a SOULMATE *here we go again*, You're very giving - just make sure you are not too self-sacrificing. That intuitive nature of yours can make your over-think situations in your own relationships. Stop Obsessing and start enjoying." O.. and they have this Break Up Signs:
- You spend an excessive amount of time worrying about the relationship
- You're afraid when he's not with you, he's a totally different person
- You think, or know, you might be working harder than he is to repair the relationship or to fix a problem in his life
- you have a preoccupation with the future
- you're are bringing up the same problems again and again
- There's relationship confusion
- The thing that is bothering you only serves to remind you of other problems in the relationship
- There's one thing you became obsessed with and you cant get it off your mind.

So there.. I can check most of the points.. like thanks ar.. The problem i have is communication.. and I need a soulmate.. not jus someone i love.. but someone i can talk to when i have a problem.. someone who wouldnt say "I dunno.. I am not an expert in this kind of things.." but rather.. TRIES to help.. or at least give some comfort.. not push it away.. someone who is there when you need them.. not go "how would i noe u need me??" I'm not trying to start a fight here.. but at this moment when i need some comfort and you are not there.. its jus tiring.. best still.. life is becoming like.. there's no difference at all whether you are here or not.. A woman dosnt only need money.. they need a soulmate.. one who will still be there even after 40 years.. not someone who only knows how to take care of the family..

And i'm really struggling.. cos.. do i give up?? or jus forget everything.. and continue.. will the problems be solved then?? What happens in future?? Now I know why my sis is still single after all these years.. becos.. as she grows up.. she now knows what she needs.. and rather than jus plurging into any relationships, she chooses very carefully.. well.. at least she is giving herself a chance to find her soulmate.. I'm hanging on for dear life in this relationship i jus cant let go yet there's no future.. What do I want? I dunno either.. I jus a complete mess.. ARGHH!

Jus in case you pple start asking.. NOpe..WE didnt quarrel.. I'm jus plain nuts.. and I know mayb one day he will read this and go bongus.. but I praying he can understand what i'm saying.. One day..

Arghh!!!! so angry!!!
Sunday, October 21, 2007

Why cant anyone change get my point?!?!!? what the hell!! Its MY MONEY!! MY MONEY!! I SPEND $5000 OVER TO GET THIS SHIT! The stupid piano.. is 2nd hand.. and according to a seller i wanted to trade in with.. it has a cracked on the cast iron *which means its a goner* and is covered with gold paint.. AND.. there's some stupid glue flowing out of the felt.. thus the buzzing sound when i hit an area of the keyboard.. AND he refused to have the piano cos he cant sell it as it will destroy his reputation selling such a piano..

So.. logical thinking.. what do you do? of cos you MUZ get the original seller *the one who sold you this faulty piano* to take it back rite???? REfund OR at least pay me back in a slightly lower price.. but NO... NO NO NO.. according to him... it is NON REFUNDABLE.. not jus tat.. he sent the photos of the "damaged" area to the jap suppliers and they said its NOT a crack.. but the glue might be the reason for the buzzing.. however.. the glue can be easily removed..

So what does my family says?? let him remove the glue and if the buzz is gone.. then ok.. live with it.. and I HAVE NO CHOICE.. ok.. here's MY side of the story.. *Which obviously no one seems to get it*..

So if he can remove the glue and the buzzing sound.. does that show that the cast iron is NOT cracked?? WHO is going to explain and assure me that smooth area *which looks like gold paint* is NOT a crack?! AND not to mention that there's already one seller who rejected my piano.. WHAT HAPPENS WHEN ONE DAY I WANNA SELL THE PIANO AND NO ONE WANS IT? THEN I REALISED IT IS A CRACK?? its like carrying a damn time bomb.. so stupid.. O.. AND.. now.. he says if he can remove the buzzing.. and i STILL wanna change a piano.. i have to PAY for the $500 transport fee.. HUH??!! so what do i do?? LIVE WITH IT?? HOW TO LIKE A PIANO WHICH YOU DUN EVEN NOE IF YOU HAVE ACTUALLY BEEN CHEATED ON?? I will always be wondering if there's a crack? if i CAN sell this piano away?? if i will eventually jus lose all my money?! o.. for your info.. i dun intend to stick to this piano forever becos its already 18 years old.. plus the sound sux.. and the touch sux.. *all my fault.. didnt noe how to choose piano.. damn.. *

Moral of the story?? NEVER BUY 2ND HAND.. AND dun bother borrowing money even from ur family to buy something.. cos.. even IF YOU are using the piano.. that u are BORROWING and thus still be returning the money with your OWN money.. YOU STILL HAVE NO SAY IN ANYTHING.. They say live with it.. you live with it.. play it you play it.. no qns..

Am I jus being plain stubborn or i'm making sense?? CAN ANYONE EVEN GET MY POINT?? GET YOU UNDERSTAND MY DILEMMA??! ARGHH!!!

So what do i plan to do? I cant be bothered.. I supposed to even call that fellow to come and remove the glue and see how it goes.. but you noe what? FORGET IT.. let it be.. I'M NOT TOUCHING THE PIANO ANYWAY.. O.. AND since i already considers the money a goner.. it doesnt matter how it sounds anymore.. o.. and ya.. MAYB I SHOULD JUS FORGET ABT TAKING ANY DIPLOMA EXAMS.. i dun wan to waste any $600 above my $5100.. no matter if the piano is the reason why i'm getting from the bad to worse.. i'm SICK AND TIRED of practising so hard and still be getting no results.. forget it.. I HAVE NO CHOICE RITE? so watever.. i really cant be bothered..
O.. last thing.. I'm jus going to save money and buy a new one.. SAVE my OWN money.. I'm NOT borrowing anymore.. forget it.. even if i will take 10 years.. i am not borrowing from them anymore.. I RATHER borrow from the bank.. at least I have say in what i want to do..

My bday celebration with hua at Charcoal!
Monday, October 15, 2007

Dear ah hua celebrated my bday last friday at Charcoal where Jason works in. Took only a few photos cos we were to busy enjoying the food.. it is really GOOD.. like DELICOUS.. YUMMY.. Love it.. but sooooo expensive.. luckily we didnt have to pay cos jason and Darren works there.. hee





Ah hua waiting for the food.. hee












Ah dear and me.. he looks so tired..











Darren and Jason helped us order the food cos we didnt wat's nice.. and guess what is this.. Cow's tongue!!! Hua was so freaked out and she REFUSED to try it.. haha I tried though.. its not that bad.. very Q.. taste like beef.. haha jus more Rubbery..








Lamb chop..haha I dun really like it cos its very smelly..haha that mutton smell.. yucky..haha







This is why the restaurant is called charcoal.. hee.. other than the lamb and cow's tongue.. there's also beef, pork, chicken AND mushrooms!! and what's best.. Hua actually tried the mushrooms and i couldn believe my ears when I heard her say.. "hao chi!" which means tasty!! hahaa omg.. this is like.. wow.. haha *hua doesnt eat veg ok!*



This is a fish which Jason and Hua both agree that it is disgusting..haha i cant remember what it is called.. and it filled with nothing but eggs.. haha I plucked up my courage and tried.. its not too bad la.. very Q too..haha but after a while it tastes bitter.. something like tea.. so i stopped eating. haha its not so bad that i will puke..








I like this photo.. cos of my pose.. haha of cos.. but also becos of the fire in the middle..










My bday cake which hua bought.. Sorry ar hua.. too full to eat much of the cake..haha but i really appreciate it..haha o.. and thanks for the solo singing of the bday song..hahaha





After our sumptous meal.. we sent jason back.. then went to watch Resident Evil.. The show isnt too bad.. but abit too much.. as in Alice *the main actress* is not jus an infected person anymore.. she has supernatural powers! haha.. like.. erm.. ya..

Pre-bday celebration..
Tuesday, October 09, 2007

First.. i muz say.. my legs are so tired and abt to break.. hahah.. jus after my first lesson of yoga.. amazing.. i didnt even perspire yet my legs are so tired after all that stretching..
ok.. anyway.. my bday is coming!!!! this coming fri!!! and some of my love ones h
ave already celebrated for me.. of cos.. there's my deardear and then there's his nemesis, vanessa.. haha..

Just yst *Mon*... dear gave me a surprise..haha he told me that he jus woken up.. and ask me to go to his house to wait for him.. and i thought its true.. cos it happens sometimes.. -_-''.. anyway.. this is what i saw..






So sweeeeet rite??? hee.. he said he told a really long time doing it..























An
d this is what i did before we left..haha









My ah dear driving.. hee.. comfortable lehz..hee











Then.. we went to PS.. and had something like.. so we shared pasta.. at gelare.. its not nice.. NOt nice at all..












I'm enjoying my food even though its not nice..haha cos i'm jus plain greedy..hee











That's cream of mushroom.. but i still like the new york new york's cream of mushroom..










Then after watching a movie, Balls of fury.. *which is so lame and not funny too*.. we went for a walk.. then proceeded to Taka Coca..Ah dear reserved a table there.. hee..










Tom yum steamboat.. yummy...













Then after dinner.. dear asked if i wanna go ktv.. haha amazing..haha first time he is willing to accompany me to ktv.. and we finally took a pic together for that day.. hee.. he is obviously very tired.. cos he woke up so early to get the car.. and then took cough syrup.. so he was drowsy.. poor dear.. muackz.. thanks dear..



Okay.. so today.. Vanessa and I finally met up.. so we decided to have a simple lunch to celebrate both of our bdays.. though hers passed months ago..hee.. so we went to Charcoal to have lunch.. yes dear.. but not the charcoal u work at.. its another restaurant which belongs to Shatec.. And charlene.. it is the restaurant that was once called petals.. remember?? hee.. here we go again..going to piss u off again.. lala




Vanessa is opening her present.. from Charlene..











Tada!! haha its a waist belt.. so charlene.. here it is.. i brought the present safely into her hands k? haha its really nice btw..










Onion soup.. not too bad.. o.. i'm dressed really formal cos i jus went to a concert by Maestro Ong Lip Tat *he's really very good btw*..











My main course.. Chicken Roulade.. not too bad.. its tasty la. but not that fantastic either...









O.. all those waiters and waitresses are students from shatec.. so they are gathering back there learning about alcohol..










Vanessa ordered salmon.. not too bad either..








Tried to upload my video.. but stupid blogspot.. jus cant do it.. keeps hanging.. so forget it.. will upload it in youtube when i'm free.. so charlene.. u got to wait..hee..


Stupid rich pampered kids!
Sunday, October 07, 2007

So pissed!!! stupid rich pampered kids!! I have SOOOO many withdrawals this month.. and why?! i dunno!! a few of them say its becos its too difficult to find parking space at amk hub.. then some say time not suitable for them.. *so they always late*.. some say what LOSE INTEREST.. *ya.. cos they refuse to prac*.. but pls la.. which kid will stay faithful to one skill?? 9 out of 10 kids will "lose interest" in what they used to love de lo.. why?? cos when everyone is playing games, watching tv, they have to prac or attend lessons.. so then ask urself la.. why some kids grow up to become pianists?? COS THEIR PARENTS made sure they dun give up halfway! *or else is they talented lo.. which is 1 out of 1000 people.. * like my mum.. why did my mum caned me when i refuse to attend music lessons?? she said cos she didnt wan me to give up halfway.. that's sooooo tradition.. such a sacred principal.. look at parents nowadays.. the moment their kids complain abit.. they think.."aiya.. teacher's fault.. my child losing interest.. withdraw*.. kaoz...

then today another kid withdrawing.. why?? the parent said "he is easily discouraged.. he used to play the piano on his own before taking up lessons and he enjoyed it so much.. now he refuse to practise.. he can play! do-re-me.. but here they teach CDE.. so i think he's confused".. kaoz.. i told her.. "he can play.. i know he can.. and i NEVER stopped him from using do-re-mi cos i know it suits him better *pls la.. i also use do-re-me de lo...kaoz* hello?! so its my fault?? your child can play but cant remember the BASIC things.. shall I let him continue playing whatever way he plays? jus let him ENJOY and not learn anything?! I can do that if she wants you noe.. but at the end of the day.. this stupid parent will definitely turn around and ask.. why has he not learnt anything.. see?! how dumb parents are nowadays? of cos her child refuse to prac.. why? cos simple.. last time when he ANYHOW play.. he enjoyed it.. cos not restrictions.. but now? now that he wans to play MUSIC.. he needs to play is PROPERLY.. he needs to improve! he needs to PRACTISE..

I really dun get it.. what has the world come to?! last time teachers are like the authority.. "you listen to the teacher no matter what.." " i dun believe you.. it mus you naughty thats why your teacher scold you".. now it becomes.."huh? you got scolded? stupid teacher!" "you dunno how to play? muz be ur teacher cant teach".. so stupid.. I have an easy way out you noe.. jus ignore.. teach and if they dun remember or nv prac... then ok lo.. ignore.. jus continue.. they will ENJOY their lesson and learn NOTHING.. but do I really have to go so low and become a servant to these rich pampered kids?? jus becos their parents are so irresponsible.. do i have to do the same?! so angry..

some pple say no matter how much u say u will never pamper ur kid.. when u marry and have kids.. you will pamper them.. but after all these stupid parents.. i am making sure i WILL NOT pamper my kids like that.. I muz be like the traditional parent.. be responsible.. for goodness sake.. pampering ur child will only destroy him or her.. so angry!!!!! damn all these morons!!!! stupid parents!!!!!!



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