Kawaii!!!! haha i love my soci lecturer.. my friend and i decided to call him Tipsy.. as in the Tipsy from Teletubbies..haha Why? of cos its becos he LOOKS like a teletubby.. huge eyes, LOVELY smile, big belly.. and he has a pretty small hands for a guy..hee.. o.. and he "sayang" his belly sometimes without knowing it..haha so cute..
What's so kawaii abt him is that he has LOTS of facial expressions when he speaks.. he speaks realllyyyy slllooowwwlllyy.. and he loves to pause after a point and go "OOkay?" while raising his eyesbrows and smiling widely.. haha I think he LOVES Bahamas cos he's always mentioning it.. and he always says things suddenly that really makes us laugh..
Eg. 1
After about an hour of lecture.. he said "okay.. i will give u a break after i finish this *one slide*..." then he pauses.. considers.. *deeply in thought* and said "o.. but i have be known to LIE.." then he gives his famous cheeky smile again.. hahahha *KAWAII!!*
Eg. 2
Finally he gave us a break.. "come back in.. *looks at his watch* 7 and a HALF min..dun ask me why.. i jus LOVE it.." haha -_-'' then during break.. he sat in his seat.. and suddenly he started psycho-ing the pple at the back to come down to the front..*cos he HATES using the microphone.. he calls it "crap" hee* this is how he COAX them.. "come on down.. i dun bite.. mayb i'll jus pass a few diseases to you..*Smilez*" then he use his hands to gesture the "come" signal.. "come on.. "sandwich eater.. * the guy eating sandwich* come down.."then he started giving pple nicknames to COAX them down.. haha
Eg.3
Then he took up his microphone.. "SO!" hahaha.. he accidentally shouted into the mic..haha then his expression went "oops!" haha then he gave that famous smile AGAin.. then he hesitated.. look at his notes.. considered.. and WHISPERED into the mic "let's continue our lecture......" then he SMILES..hahaha omg!! KAWAII NE?!!!
eg.4
Everytime time's up.. the clock in the lecture hall will ring.. then he will GLARED at the clock and talk to it.. "that's rude!!!" "Give me a min will u?!"
haha
eg.5
He loves to use students as examples.. for eg. he can go "for example u are A..." so that day.. i was making lots of expression cos i was trying very hard to control my laughter.. and my friend was thus looking at me.. trying to hide her laughter too.. haha then the lecturer called her.."for example.. you.." he points at her.. but we didnt noe.. *too bz laughing* what's funny was he INSISTED on getting her attention.. "like you.. you.. you" hahahaha for 3 times.. then we realised.. hahaha then everyone started laughing.. you see.. the thing is.. he could have ignored.. since he wasnt going to ask her any qns.. jus to make a reference.. but he jus WANTS her attention.. haha
eg. 6
once he went.. "anybody has qns?.. anybody wans to leave the lecture? you can do that u noe.. jus leave..." then again.. he pauses.. and considers.. "but then of course i will have to ask your friend what's ur name... " hahaha *thinking of blackmarking whoever that leaves...* ahhaaha cunning guy.. haha
eg.7
After the break.. he asked "anybody aint here pls raise ur hand!!" hahahaha and again he flashes his wide, cheeky smile.. haha
There are more examples.. but i cant remember now.. haha in conclusion.. i really like his lecture.. so enjoyable.. hee.. my friend and i were thinking we are so going to mark him as excellant in the surveys on teacher at the end of this sem when he says after a talking abt a point.. "did i offend anyone? *cos he lectures alot on power relations.. anti-govnt..haha so.. u noe..* cos i really hope i did.. my job is to offend pple.. everyday i count the no. of pple i offended.. the more the better.. " *SMILES* so my friend and i decided to add in the comment in the evaluation survey in future that "he LOVES offending students.. I HATE HIM.. haha and i dun like his lectures!!" hahaha hopefully he will understand that its becos we love him so much that we have to do that to make him happy..hehee
wanna take a look on how he looks like? ---> http://profile.nus.edu.sg/fass/sochvr/index.htm
*try to imagine him smiling cheekily..hee*
My Tipsy Lecturer
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Driving lessons
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Haiz.. haha i went for my 2nd driving today.. at first.. after my 1st lesson.. i thought "driving isnt that diff!!" but how wrong i was..haha today.. my instructor told me to drive out to the main road *was in the carpark the previous lesson*.. immediately i panicked "shit.. m i ready for that?!" then no choice.. i drove.. SLOWLY..haha it was TERRIFYING.. gosh.. my heart was pumping against my ribs the whole time...
Xiao shi once told me she stalled engine twice when she was learning driving.. so i thought.. mmm.. mayb i will stall engine around the same no. of times *i mean i aint that bad rite?!* but NO.. i stalled.. at least.. EIGHT times!!!! my god!! i jus keep forgetting to step the clutch before i brake! twice i stalled engine 3 times in a row.. once was becos i didnt press clutch b4 i brake and the other was becos i was sooooo kan cheong that i released the clutch too early when i wanted to start moving.. *it was becos he told me to U-turn at some place that doesnt have u-turn sign..PLS!!!* so damn scary..
A few times he had to adjust my steering wheel.. haha cos.. there are soo many things to note that i remember doing one thing and forget the other.. for eg. i check out for vehicles then i forgot abt my steering wheel.. or i remember to brake but forget the clutch.. kaoz.. NOW i noe i cant multi-task.. *sorry, Qi.. for laughing at u in the past cos u cant multi-task..haha btw..how u learn how to drive then?!?* so ya.. even though the instructor didnt really scold me.. *jus raised his voice..but his voice is already so loud normally* but i noe i was seriously testing his patience..haha
He was very kind to say "actually.. u aint that bad cos u only 2nd time" after the lesson.. but i doubt so.. i mean.. who stalls engine so many times?! God.. hopefully i wun stall engine again next lesson.. i MEMORIZED the diff steps already.. but dunno if i might messed up when i'm in front of the steering wheel again.. haiz.. GOOD LUCK to me!
Xiao shi once told me she stalled engine twice when she was learning driving.. so i thought.. mmm.. mayb i will stall engine around the same no. of times *i mean i aint that bad rite?!* but NO.. i stalled.. at least.. EIGHT times!!!! my god!! i jus keep forgetting to step the clutch before i brake! twice i stalled engine 3 times in a row.. once was becos i didnt press clutch b4 i brake and the other was becos i was sooooo kan cheong that i released the clutch too early when i wanted to start moving.. *it was becos he told me to U-turn at some place that doesnt have u-turn sign..PLS!!!* so damn scary..
A few times he had to adjust my steering wheel.. haha cos.. there are soo many things to note that i remember doing one thing and forget the other.. for eg. i check out for vehicles then i forgot abt my steering wheel.. or i remember to brake but forget the clutch.. kaoz.. NOW i noe i cant multi-task.. *sorry, Qi.. for laughing at u in the past cos u cant multi-task..haha btw..how u learn how to drive then?!?* so ya.. even though the instructor didnt really scold me.. *jus raised his voice..but his voice is already so loud normally* but i noe i was seriously testing his patience..haha
He was very kind to say "actually.. u aint that bad cos u only 2nd time" after the lesson.. but i doubt so.. i mean.. who stalls engine so many times?! God.. hopefully i wun stall engine again next lesson.. i MEMORIZED the diff steps already.. but dunno if i might messed up when i'm in front of the steering wheel again.. haiz.. GOOD LUCK to me!
Went shopping with hua!
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Hee.. went shopping to "de-stress".. bought many things.. a pair of shoes, a pair of shorts, a belt and also some tidbits.. hee We started our day by having lunch at the Indonesian restaurant again... I jus love the food..
Ok.. i ordered Ox Tail soup this time.. cos Vanessa said it was gd too.. but i forgot to consider what is "ox tail".. its gross..haha the soup is ok.. but i jus find the ox tail disgusting.. eww.. look at my face.. it shows rite?!
So long since we took neoprints.. dunno why hua's so tensed up..hahaha but she does look slim like that..hahahaha *oops*
No comments..haha our eyes are BIG rite? Cute rite? camera trick..hee
Don't i look like a superstar?! pls say i do!! haha we had no time to prepare our poses before the machine went "3..2..1!" so.. most of our poses were the same.. -_-''
Around 4pm.. I had to go to some briefing at Victoria Concert hall.. then after that Hua and I walked to Liang Court *Our favourite hangout* and on our way.. we became tourists..haha look at me.. i definitely look like a tourist with the bags and sunglasses..
Big big slippers.. this is supposed to be the wooden clogs worn by chinese pple in the olden days.. so now.. here.. it became STEEL.. or is it IRON?? all i noe is that its huge and HOT under that blazing sun..
Trying to be funny..hee..
I think its too heavy for hua.. pls la.. its not jus sacks of rice.. its 100kg of IRON there.. seriously hua.. what are u trying to do?? haha
look closely.. that's the statue of Sir Stanford Raffles.. mm.. but then.. i didnt noe Raffles was crippled.. he actually need a clutch to walk?! that's how he arrived in Singapore?! Look! there's a clutch beside the statue!! -_-''
That's it.. we went to eat at liang court.. then went home.. on our way home.. in the mrt.. that unbelievable hua suddenly says i should join superstar.. then dunno y.. she say we can join together.. that sparked a real funny conversation on how we are going to perform on stage blah blah blah.. not going to elaborate here.. too long le.. and only hua and i will understand what's so funny abt it..haha
Ok.. i ordered Ox Tail soup this time.. cos Vanessa said it was gd too.. but i forgot to consider what is "ox tail".. its gross..haha the soup is ok.. but i jus find the ox tail disgusting.. eww.. look at my face.. it shows rite?!
So long since we took neoprints.. dunno why hua's so tensed up..hahaha but she does look slim like that..hahahaha *oops*
No comments..haha our eyes are BIG rite? Cute rite? camera trick..hee
Don't i look like a superstar?! pls say i do!! haha we had no time to prepare our poses before the machine went "3..2..1!" so.. most of our poses were the same.. -_-''
Around 4pm.. I had to go to some briefing at Victoria Concert hall.. then after that Hua and I walked to Liang Court *Our favourite hangout* and on our way.. we became tourists..haha look at me.. i definitely look like a tourist with the bags and sunglasses..
Big big slippers.. this is supposed to be the wooden clogs worn by chinese pple in the olden days.. so now.. here.. it became STEEL.. or is it IRON?? all i noe is that its huge and HOT under that blazing sun..
Trying to be funny..hee..
I think its too heavy for hua.. pls la.. its not jus sacks of rice.. its 100kg of IRON there.. seriously hua.. what are u trying to do?? haha
look closely.. that's the statue of Sir Stanford Raffles.. mm.. but then.. i didnt noe Raffles was crippled.. he actually need a clutch to walk?! that's how he arrived in Singapore?! Look! there's a clutch beside the statue!! -_-''
That's it.. we went to eat at liang court.. then went home.. on our way home.. in the mrt.. that unbelievable hua suddenly says i should join superstar.. then dunno y.. she say we can join together.. that sparked a real funny conversation on how we are going to perform on stage blah blah blah.. not going to elaborate here.. too long le.. and only hua and i will understand what's so funny abt it..haha
Went to kbox (again)
Friday, August 18, 2006
Yoyo.. hi pple! how's everyone? mmm.. nothing much happened to be these few days.. jus that sch started.. and i went kbox on thurs.. hee.. Singing is always the best way to cheer myself up.. So.. Shi suggested going to kbox.. so.. Jin Sheng, Pbear, shi and I went to the kbox at cck.. Actually its no big deal.. but since we have taken some pics *sheng and pbear had nothing else to do.. i think..hee* So might as well jus upload it here..
Crazy pic.. pbear was trying to cover his plump face..haha
That's us.. act cute!! Sheng's really becoming too fair..haha pls hor.. go sun tan la!
Probably as everyone in the world knows by now, taking a photo from the top will make you look extremely slim.. hee.. I cant believe i managed to look so slim in this pic..
I know shi's going to kill me for uploading this pic..haha but i decided i should becos it's seldom i get to look thinner than her..heez
Last but not least.. i decided to upload this pic.. hee.. taken during
my granny's funeral..
Look at wat terry did while accompanying me overnight at the funeral.. we were really bored.. haha
Crazy pic.. pbear was trying to cover his plump face..haha
That's us.. act cute!! Sheng's really becoming too fair..haha pls hor.. go sun tan la!
Probably as everyone in the world knows by now, taking a photo from the top will make you look extremely slim.. hee.. I cant believe i managed to look so slim in this pic..
I know shi's going to kill me for uploading this pic..haha but i decided i should becos it's seldom i get to look thinner than her..heez
Last but not least.. i decided to upload this pic.. hee.. taken during
my granny's funeral..Look at wat terry did while accompanying me overnight at the funeral.. we were really bored.. haha
Superband concert..
Sunday, August 13, 2006
I went to the superband concert before my grandma passed away.. think on sat.. So anyway.. Superband is organized by mediacorp.. eh.. a competition between bands.. So.. one of the members from the band called Lucify was Hua's friend... and hence we managed to get tickets to the finals which was held at expo.. *we were not that excited but were there jus to support her friend* I really regret not bringing my camera!! so angry.. i actually forgot AGAIN.. after the time i forgot to bring my camera during BSB's concert.. cant believe i forgot once again!!! DAMN IT..
So well.. i had to use my hp to take some pic.. before going to the concert.. we went to our favourite place for jap food.. that is.. Liang Court!! hee.. so here's some pic..
My favourite Jap curry rice.. Yummy!! its the best.. hee omg.. hua.. i wanna go again!! my craving is back!!
That's hua's sis.. Gothic rite?! haha for ur info.. Lucify is a very Gothic band..so she fits in damn well.. what she's holding is egg salad.. personally..i dun like salad..*as you well noe*.. so ..heez
Alright.. that day.. i was very into hip hop.. so i kind of looked like Soul's fan.. a hip hop group..hee.. But honestly..i still like Shinobi.. they are something like Linkin Park.. and i think they are the BEST!!!
That's the stage.. we were very close.. and most of the celebrities would pass by us.. they are like jus BESIDE us.. so you can imagine why i was sooo pissed at myself for not bring camera.. arghh!!
That's me.. eh.. waiting for the concert to start.. nope..i didnt make that heart.. it was given.. hee..
Look.. die hard fans..hahaha
You cant believe how i felt after the concert.. my mouth was stuck in this shape..hee.. cos i blew the whistle non-stop the entire concert..hee.. jus for the fun of i
t.. gd way to de-stress..hee
This is actually Zhou Chong Qing.. haiz.. so sad.. cos i have no camera.. and only hp.. haiz.. so the photo turns out like this.. cant even see him.. i jus had to take pic with him cos.. he looked damn cool..haha very gothic.. too bad.. haiz..
Ok.. my head is spinning.. the medicine is starting to take effect.. god.. i can hardly open my eyelids..hee.. nitez!!!
So well.. i had to use my hp to take some pic.. before going to the concert.. we went to our favourite place for jap food.. that is.. Liang Court!! hee.. so here's some pic..
My favourite Jap curry rice.. Yummy!! its the best.. hee omg.. hua.. i wanna go again!! my craving is back!!
That's hua's sis.. Gothic rite?! haha for ur info.. Lucify is a very Gothic band..so she fits in damn well.. what she's holding is egg salad.. personally..i dun like salad..*as you well noe*.. so ..heez
Alright.. that day.. i was very into hip hop.. so i kind of looked like Soul's fan.. a hip hop group..hee.. But honestly..i still like Shinobi.. they are something like Linkin Park.. and i think they are the BEST!!!
That's the stage.. we were very close.. and most of the celebrities would pass by us.. they are like jus BESIDE us.. so you can imagine why i was sooo pissed at myself for not bring camera.. arghh!!
That's me.. eh.. waiting for the concert to start.. nope..i didnt make that heart.. it was given.. hee..
Look.. die hard fans..hahaha
You cant believe how i felt after the concert.. my mouth was stuck in this shape..hee.. cos i blew the whistle non-stop the entire concert..hee.. jus for the fun of i
t.. gd way to de-stress..heeThis is actually Zhou Chong Qing.. haiz.. so sad.. cos i have no camera.. and only hp.. haiz.. so the photo turns out like this.. cant even see him.. i jus had to take pic with him cos.. he looked damn cool..haha very gothic.. too bad.. haiz..
Ok.. my head is spinning.. the medicine is starting to take effect.. god.. i can hardly open my eyelids..hee.. nitez!!!
Ah ma.. i miss you sooo much that my heart aches like hell...
Saturday, August 12, 2006
Haiz.. I really have no mood to write this down..but its time i wrote it.. well lene.. if you see this.. a letter is coming ur way.. telling you tat my grandma has passed away.. ya.. the one that stays with me.. lene.. haiz.. i dunno what to say.. anyway.. the details are written in my letter..so you can read it there.. probably reach you in 2 weeks time.. by then i should be ok le..
Well.. in general.. my grandma fell down abt 2 months before.. one of her ribs cracked.. so she was in terrible pain..then after she finally got back from hospital.. she was constantly complaining.. nagging.. anyway..she stopped eating.. only a tiny bit of cereal drink and porridge everyday.. gradually..she deteriorated (how to spell??).. then abt a week back.. she could speak anymore.. well you noe my granny..no matter how bad her condition is..she will have tons to say and nag..and so when she couldnt speak anymore..its quite obvious what is going to happen..
So then.. on mon 7th August.. my sis woke my up to find my granny lying on bed..unconscious.. not moving.. only breathing.. so we called all our relatives.. or rather.. my sis did the calling while i did the useless crying.. after every arrived.. at 1pm she finally went peacefully.. see my letter for details.. i'm jus writing in general here..
So ya.. its been hell ever since i woke up on 7th August.. here.. i wanna talk more abt my granny's life..
She had a really tough life.. she was an orphan.. adopted by a kind paranakan family.. at a young age..she married my grandpa.. then she gave birth to 9 children.. but one by one they dies young.. leaving only 4 left.. my grandpa died at a very young age during to his addiction to opium.. around 30 yrs old.. so if i'm not wrong..my granny was soo poor she had to give away her youngest son.. *handsome guy.. saw the photo*..so left three.. my dad's the second.. then to make sure her children get to study up to at least sec sch.. she took several jobs.. for eg. she took up laundery ( how to spell again?!), be a nanny.. i think there are more..not too sure.. and she had to take care of her children too.. thus.. you can imagine there's no way she could have saved up any money.. *that's besides the point*
So ya.. after all her children have grown up and married.. her youngest son.. the third *4th given away* died young due to alcohol addiction.. by then i was in primary sch.. my granny was very upset.. devastated.. she kept saying "bai tou ren song hei tou ren" literally meaning someone with greying hair has to see someone with black hair die b4 her.. then slowly..her friends went too.. her step bro went too.. by the time it was her turn.. she was lonely.. *i think* even though she has her children and grandchildren with her.. i mean.. can you imagine your family all going away one by one??
My granny was a very kind, strong woman.. she often buy food for friends that were very poor.. As for being strong.. even when she was dying.. she managed to control her own life.. she waitedto see all her children and grandchildren b4 she finally decided to let go.. i mean.. she was so strong..she could decided if it was time she went.. not to mention how she brought up 3 kids on her own at that kind of situation..
I regret saying that i'm the only one who could bully her.. haha i'm quite convince that i'm pure evil when i was young.. i cant remember much..but i was told that i used to bully her.. i even threw a stool at her *i noe its evil..but i really dun remember anything*.. my sis said i even pushed her and she knocked onto the double decker bed and got a cut on her head.. damn..i'm really evil.. anyway.. ya.. but no matter what i did to her.. she loved me.. i know it.. She loved me.. never stopped loving me.. jus like my mother never gave up on me too.. so ya.. now u pple noe why i love my grandma soooo much..
I remember once.. i was very ill.. in primary sch..think i was abt p4.. and my granny was very old already.. but becos she's the only one at home..she came to fetch me.. and wat she did was carried my bag and everything i have.. including water bottle and a huge plastic bag filled with i dunno what that made it so damn heavy.. you noe la.. primary sch kid's bag is VERY heavy.. so then she carried everything.. and walked slowly home.. struggling every take..but NEVER once she complained..haiz..
Everytime i had stomache which was very often.. she would take her medical oil.. and rub it for me.. she would always nag at me while doing it.. saying "see la.. i told you.. dunno drink cold water.. blah blah blah" hee.. but always.. i felt loved.. that's y i love her hands.. her hands is one part of her that i will nv forget.. trembling.. sometimes cold but always filled with love and care..
When my bro have running nose.. which is almost every morning.. she would again complain.. but then walked back to her room..get her pills.. and mentos.. walked to the kitchen to get water and then walked all the way to my bro to feed it to him.. then help him put back the cup.. *mind you.. she was already old and her legs are weak* not that my bro wanted her to do all that walking.. but she jus insisted on doing everything.. o well.. that's jus her.. my granny..
Lastly.. i wanna say..
Ah ma.. I love you.. will always love you.. will always remember you.. I miss you so much.. but i noe you will always be watching.. taking care of us.. I promise you.. i will stand back up again.. i'm sorry i cant stop crying for the loss..but i promise.. i WILL stand back up.. will be the Weiling you always known..the one that always smiled at you even when you went.. I love you ah ma.. Goodbye ah ma..
Well.. in general.. my grandma fell down abt 2 months before.. one of her ribs cracked.. so she was in terrible pain..then after she finally got back from hospital.. she was constantly complaining.. nagging.. anyway..she stopped eating.. only a tiny bit of cereal drink and porridge everyday.. gradually..she deteriorated (how to spell??).. then abt a week back.. she could speak anymore.. well you noe my granny..no matter how bad her condition is..she will have tons to say and nag..and so when she couldnt speak anymore..its quite obvious what is going to happen..
So then.. on mon 7th August.. my sis woke my up to find my granny lying on bed..unconscious.. not moving.. only breathing.. so we called all our relatives.. or rather.. my sis did the calling while i did the useless crying.. after every arrived.. at 1pm she finally went peacefully.. see my letter for details.. i'm jus writing in general here..
So ya.. its been hell ever since i woke up on 7th August.. here.. i wanna talk more abt my granny's life..
She had a really tough life.. she was an orphan.. adopted by a kind paranakan family.. at a young age..she married my grandpa.. then she gave birth to 9 children.. but one by one they dies young.. leaving only 4 left.. my grandpa died at a very young age during to his addiction to opium.. around 30 yrs old.. so if i'm not wrong..my granny was soo poor she had to give away her youngest son.. *handsome guy.. saw the photo*..so left three.. my dad's the second.. then to make sure her children get to study up to at least sec sch.. she took several jobs.. for eg. she took up laundery ( how to spell again?!), be a nanny.. i think there are more..not too sure.. and she had to take care of her children too.. thus.. you can imagine there's no way she could have saved up any money.. *that's besides the point*
So ya.. after all her children have grown up and married.. her youngest son.. the third *4th given away* died young due to alcohol addiction.. by then i was in primary sch.. my granny was very upset.. devastated.. she kept saying "bai tou ren song hei tou ren" literally meaning someone with greying hair has to see someone with black hair die b4 her.. then slowly..her friends went too.. her step bro went too.. by the time it was her turn.. she was lonely.. *i think* even though she has her children and grandchildren with her.. i mean.. can you imagine your family all going away one by one??
My granny was a very kind, strong woman.. she often buy food for friends that were very poor.. As for being strong.. even when she was dying.. she managed to control her own life.. she waitedto see all her children and grandchildren b4 she finally decided to let go.. i mean.. she was so strong..she could decided if it was time she went.. not to mention how she brought up 3 kids on her own at that kind of situation..
I regret saying that i'm the only one who could bully her.. haha i'm quite convince that i'm pure evil when i was young.. i cant remember much..but i was told that i used to bully her.. i even threw a stool at her *i noe its evil..but i really dun remember anything*.. my sis said i even pushed her and she knocked onto the double decker bed and got a cut on her head.. damn..i'm really evil.. anyway.. ya.. but no matter what i did to her.. she loved me.. i know it.. She loved me.. never stopped loving me.. jus like my mother never gave up on me too.. so ya.. now u pple noe why i love my grandma soooo much..
I remember once.. i was very ill.. in primary sch..think i was abt p4.. and my granny was very old already.. but becos she's the only one at home..she came to fetch me.. and wat she did was carried my bag and everything i have.. including water bottle and a huge plastic bag filled with i dunno what that made it so damn heavy.. you noe la.. primary sch kid's bag is VERY heavy.. so then she carried everything.. and walked slowly home.. struggling every take..but NEVER once she complained..haiz..
Everytime i had stomache which was very often.. she would take her medical oil.. and rub it for me.. she would always nag at me while doing it.. saying "see la.. i told you.. dunno drink cold water.. blah blah blah" hee.. but always.. i felt loved.. that's y i love her hands.. her hands is one part of her that i will nv forget.. trembling.. sometimes cold but always filled with love and care..
When my bro have running nose.. which is almost every morning.. she would again complain.. but then walked back to her room..get her pills.. and mentos.. walked to the kitchen to get water and then walked all the way to my bro to feed it to him.. then help him put back the cup.. *mind you.. she was already old and her legs are weak* not that my bro wanted her to do all that walking.. but she jus insisted on doing everything.. o well.. that's jus her.. my granny..
Lastly.. i wanna say..
Ah ma.. I love you.. will always love you.. will always remember you.. I miss you so much.. but i noe you will always be watching.. taking care of us.. I promise you.. i will stand back up again.. i'm sorry i cant stop crying for the loss..but i promise.. i WILL stand back up.. will be the Weiling you always known..the one that always smiled at you even when you went.. I love you ah ma.. Goodbye ah ma..
Life is soo short.. don't u think so??
Friday, August 04, 2006
Hua lent me a jap drama called "1 litre of tears" a few weeks back.. started watching a few days back.. and thanks to her..i've been crying everytime i see the show.. the moment the poor girl appears in the show..my eyes start to blur.. anyway.. this show is abt a true story..where a young jap girl aged 15 discovered that she has this very rare illness after she fell down once.. the way she fell was weird becos instead of using her hands to break her fall like most pple would have..she fell face down.. so her mum broke her for a checkup..
The illness she have is very rare and horrible.. some part of her brain starts diminishing bit by bit and soon will disappear.. thus.. gradually.. she will be unable to move her muscle.. In the beginning.. she starts tripping.. then she cant gauge the distance between her hands and the things she wans to take.. then gradually.. cant walk.. then cant write.. cant speak.. cant swallow.. then eventually..she dies.. haiz..
Anyway.. this show made me feel like..we really dun have much time left.. with a blink of an eye.. you will be 21yrs old.. another blink and u are 40yrs old.. then i begin to ask myself.. "have i done what i really wanted all these yrs??" "if i were to die in a week.. what is the thing i most wan to do??" surprisingly.. i have no ans.. it seems like i have been living so contently that i dun seem to have something i really wanna do.. mmm.. i better start thinking..
Thankz to the show too.. i got so frighten then i went to have an x-ray of my lower backbone cos it has been giving me probs for quite some time.. and never seems to cure..still waiting for the results.. got to go see the doc again next week to see the results.. hopefully its nothing bad..
I'm still coughing.. having running nose.. and thus.. always drowsy.. thanks to the medicine.. *which reminds me.. i better go take the medicine now.. haiz*
The illness she have is very rare and horrible.. some part of her brain starts diminishing bit by bit and soon will disappear.. thus.. gradually.. she will be unable to move her muscle.. In the beginning.. she starts tripping.. then she cant gauge the distance between her hands and the things she wans to take.. then gradually.. cant walk.. then cant write.. cant speak.. cant swallow.. then eventually..she dies.. haiz..
Anyway.. this show made me feel like..we really dun have much time left.. with a blink of an eye.. you will be 21yrs old.. another blink and u are 40yrs old.. then i begin to ask myself.. "have i done what i really wanted all these yrs??" "if i were to die in a week.. what is the thing i most wan to do??" surprisingly.. i have no ans.. it seems like i have been living so contently that i dun seem to have something i really wanna do.. mmm.. i better start thinking..
Thankz to the show too.. i got so frighten then i went to have an x-ray of my lower backbone cos it has been giving me probs for quite some time.. and never seems to cure..still waiting for the results.. got to go see the doc again next week to see the results.. hopefully its nothing bad..
I'm still coughing.. having running nose.. and thus.. always drowsy.. thanks to the medicine.. *which reminds me.. i better go take the medicine now.. haiz*
Sick again...
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
aiyo... sick again..but actually i quite happy...cos whenever i start to have running nose and cough..i tend to lose appetite..hahaha so can SLIM DOWN for only this period..hee
anyway.. cos i havent been doing anything special these few days..so nothing to write.. so now.. i shall jus share some funny things that happened to be for the past days...
That day.. i went for tuition...then halfway having tuition..i saw a MOSQUITO..my worse enemy.. then i was so scared..haha i told my student.. the last time i got bitten at her hse.. the lump was sooooo big...it was 5cm in Diameter.. can u believe it? *yesh..i even measured it.. cos i was so afraid it was ades* so then my students were shocked... then the older one *sec 2* went to look for insect repellant or pesticide..
After a few min.. she came back with one hand behind her back and one stretching out..holding an old-looking *its rusty u noe?!* Mopiko..then she gave it to me and say "U use this".. i was like "What?! so i am to wait for the mosquito to bite me then use ur RUSTY OLD mopiko?!" then we all started laughing...what's more..she started pasting some mosquito patch *those that can prevent mosquitoes from coming near u* on her hand.. KAOZ! i was like.. "y u can use that and i have to use that mopiko?!" Everyone started laughing again..then she threw the patch to me and said "hana! take it la!" kaoz... so much for being respected as a Teacher..
About 2 days ago..i had a WEIRD dream..hahaha i dunno if this will sound funny when its written out.. Jason laughed when i told him my dream.. he GENUINELY laughed.. so here's it..
I dreamt of Jason.. still as my bf.. i told him *in my dreams* that that family wans to kill me..haha cos he wanted to fetch them home *i think* in his car WITH me sitting in the middle.. the family consist of one mother, one daughter and a small boy.. but he didnt believe me.. so i had no choice.. the scene changed to being in the car.. eh.. the small boy sitting on my left.. tried to KILL ME!!! WITH A......... PEN! omg! *this is the worse part of my dream* HE POKED THE PEN IN MY RIGHT ARMPIT!! can u believe this? i'm SOO ticklish and he had to do THAT! i was laughing and crying at the same time... then i grabbed the pen... and tried to snatch it from him.. i even broke the pen.. *I hate the pen!* Suddenly.. the scene changed.. seems like Jason realised what happened.. *Kaoz..i can still feel the pen under my armpit now..* so he stopped the car..then suddenly... i'm all beaten up.. and he looked at me.. said "i'm sooo sorry.. i should have believed you" then held me while i "pretended" to faint..hahahah
the next scene *yesh..its a long dream*.. i'm in a shopping mall.. seems like Jason and I bought a shop there.. then suddenly some kid say he needs Jason's help..so he went off..leaving me to take care of the shop.. THEN.. here comes the murderer.. the one that tried to kill me with a pen.. but this time.. the murderer became a girl.. and guess who's that? PEIYI.. hahahaha omg.. she came with her mum...this time..she tried to kill me with.... DOUFU!!! *beancurd* omg!!! so funny.. they started throwing doufu at me.. while i started running..then dunno where i got the courage.. *probably damn pissed already.. pen then doufu?!* i walked up to her..and shouted "what's wrong with u? its not him u like! who u really like is ur father!!! Huang Wen Yong!" * Huang Wen Yong is a Singaporean actor..-_-''* then suddenly.. she finally realised her mistake and started crying...we made up then..hahahaha THEn dunno why her mother suddenly look exactly like her.. twins..hahaha she forgave me too.. cos the daughter forgave me.. kaoz..
Then finally Jason came back.. while i was alone.. sitting on by the doors of the shopping mall.. seems like he BOUGHT the ENTIRE shopping mall!! hahaaha Cool!! hahaha
I know.. this is stupid.. hahaha Jason kept saying i'm so stupid to dream of this.. haha
anyway.. cos i havent been doing anything special these few days..so nothing to write.. so now.. i shall jus share some funny things that happened to be for the past days...
That day.. i went for tuition...then halfway having tuition..i saw a MOSQUITO..my worse enemy.. then i was so scared..haha i told my student.. the last time i got bitten at her hse.. the lump was sooooo big...it was 5cm in Diameter.. can u believe it? *yesh..i even measured it.. cos i was so afraid it was ades* so then my students were shocked... then the older one *sec 2* went to look for insect repellant or pesticide..
After a few min.. she came back with one hand behind her back and one stretching out..holding an old-looking *its rusty u noe?!* Mopiko..then she gave it to me and say "U use this".. i was like "What?! so i am to wait for the mosquito to bite me then use ur RUSTY OLD mopiko?!" then we all started laughing...what's more..she started pasting some mosquito patch *those that can prevent mosquitoes from coming near u* on her hand.. KAOZ! i was like.. "y u can use that and i have to use that mopiko?!" Everyone started laughing again..then she threw the patch to me and said "hana! take it la!" kaoz... so much for being respected as a Teacher..
About 2 days ago..i had a WEIRD dream..hahaha i dunno if this will sound funny when its written out.. Jason laughed when i told him my dream.. he GENUINELY laughed.. so here's it..
I dreamt of Jason.. still as my bf.. i told him *in my dreams* that that family wans to kill me..haha cos he wanted to fetch them home *i think* in his car WITH me sitting in the middle.. the family consist of one mother, one daughter and a small boy.. but he didnt believe me.. so i had no choice.. the scene changed to being in the car.. eh.. the small boy sitting on my left.. tried to KILL ME!!! WITH A......... PEN! omg! *this is the worse part of my dream* HE POKED THE PEN IN MY RIGHT ARMPIT!! can u believe this? i'm SOO ticklish and he had to do THAT! i was laughing and crying at the same time... then i grabbed the pen... and tried to snatch it from him.. i even broke the pen.. *I hate the pen!* Suddenly.. the scene changed.. seems like Jason realised what happened.. *Kaoz..i can still feel the pen under my armpit now..* so he stopped the car..then suddenly... i'm all beaten up.. and he looked at me.. said "i'm sooo sorry.. i should have believed you" then held me while i "pretended" to faint..hahahah
the next scene *yesh..its a long dream*.. i'm in a shopping mall.. seems like Jason and I bought a shop there.. then suddenly some kid say he needs Jason's help..so he went off..leaving me to take care of the shop.. THEN.. here comes the murderer.. the one that tried to kill me with a pen.. but this time.. the murderer became a girl.. and guess who's that? PEIYI.. hahahaha omg.. she came with her mum...this time..she tried to kill me with.... DOUFU!!! *beancurd* omg!!! so funny.. they started throwing doufu at me.. while i started running..then dunno where i got the courage.. *probably damn pissed already.. pen then doufu?!* i walked up to her..and shouted "what's wrong with u? its not him u like! who u really like is ur father!!! Huang Wen Yong!" * Huang Wen Yong is a Singaporean actor..-_-''* then suddenly.. she finally realised her mistake and started crying...we made up then..hahahaha THEn dunno why her mother suddenly look exactly like her.. twins..hahaha she forgave me too.. cos the daughter forgave me.. kaoz..
Then finally Jason came back.. while i was alone.. sitting on by the doors of the shopping mall.. seems like he BOUGHT the ENTIRE shopping mall!! hahaaha Cool!! hahaha
I know.. this is stupid.. hahaha Jason kept saying i'm so stupid to dream of this.. haha